Last month I pulled back the curtain on my life and shared something I’ve not talked about openly before.
Perhaps you’ve wondered what happened since that post. I had purposed 3 things:
1.To memorize scripture to renew my mind
2. Embrace the quiet – shutting off the noise to hear God’s voice
3. Ask myself “why?” when I start looking for something to stuff in my mouth.
It’s been almost a month and a half since I shared about my problem with food.
The first month I did nothing.
Yep – that’s pretty much my M.O.
I know my problem.
I can own up to my problem.
But I have real trouble resolving my problem.
Finally, last Sunday I decided that enough is enough. I was tired of being a professional fall-off-the-wagon-er, I didn’t want to get to December with this sick, flabby body.
I’m not looking to be a size-6. I want to feel good. I want to have energy. I want to be fit.
Recently, I bought a Fitbit Zip to track my steps everyday (look for my review next week).
So, Monday I clipped it on and for two days I just tracked my normal lifestyle. I racked up between 2,000-3,000 steps – between one-third to one-fourth of what an active person logs (in other words, I’m much more sedentary than I thought).
Next, I started logging my food at My Fitness Pal and drinking my version of The Singing Canary (look for my recipe on Thursday).
By Wednesday I was looking for ways to get in more steps; and then I started exercising.
My routine is: I jog for 4 minutes and then for 1 minute I do strength training by alternating weights, leg lifts and crunches. I do this for 20-30 minutes each day.
By Saturday I was logging between 5,000-8,000 steps.
Best of all, I also began memorizing scripture again!
I chose Ephesians because it is such an encouraging book. I will slowly work my way through the whole book. But check out these verses in chapter 1:
“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love… that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power…”
Finally, yesterday I logged my first 10,000 steps!!
And you know what I’ve discovered?
When I’m active I don’t even think much about stuffing food in my mouth.
When I have to log my food, I am less inclined to rationalize about why I deserve that bit of food.
When others are able to see whether or not I have gone over my calorie goal for the day, I am less inclined to be nonchalant about eating too many calories.
In the past 9 days I have gone over my calorie goal only 3 times.
Now, I want to remind you that in my post I shared that I don’t eat for comfort because I’m hurt or sad now. That has already been resolved long ago. I comfort eat now because its a habit. Because I love that feeling that food gives.
But I’m learning that this feeling is a lie. A big, fat lie!
Like sin, it gives momentary pleasure but the after taste is guilt and entrapment in a body with too much weight.
In its place, I have discovered the joy that God’s Word gives, its treasure hidden in the depths of sacred pages.
I am also learning to enjoy exercise!
It’s true. Ring the bells. Cue the confetti. Mark the calendars everyone, because after pretty much a lifetime of hating exercise I have discovered that I actually love it!!
Best of all, my metabolism has finally clicked on. But, I don’t want to give the whole story now. Next Tuesday I want to share about how I’m kicking my adrenal fatigue to the curb and what I’ve discovered has finally worked!
This is only chapter 2 in my story about overcoming comfort eating. It’s still a battle. When my husband makes a delicious sandwich with my favorite bread, smothered in mayonnaise and delicious, mouth-watering salami I secretly covet the fact that he doesn’t have to watch his calories.
When I give my kids lovely snacks of pudding, cookies and chips, I look longingly at their plates while I munch on a carrot.
In other words, I’m in the difficult phase of “overcoming”. I haven’t overcome quite yet.
Its a process of learning to keep the 10th commandment to not covet what I should not have.
Can I have it? Sure, I can. I can have it if I want to remain in bondage. Sure, I can have it if I want to stay bound to adrenal fatigue, 30 extra pounds, and lethargy.
But should I? No, I shouldn’t because it’s not caring for God’s temple. It’s not living in obedience to His Word!
So, here goes the next phase. I will continue to retrain my thinking, taking every covetous thought captive. I will continue to care for my temple with exercise, vitamins, healthy food, and correct calorie limits.
I’ll be back in another month to share chapter 3.