This Christmas will go down in the annals of the Jukic Family as the oddest, most spontaneous, and funnest Christmas ever! ….well, thus far, anyway.
Fact is, it was a battle in me. I was writing straight from the heart….and from the hip. I was writing about my inward war: a desire to have the Christmases I’d always known and a desire to be okay with the fact that it will likely never be that way again.
We are now 4 days away from Christmas and I can say that this year has been 100% different than every other year since I’ve been married. Well, since I’ve been here.
2014 for me was a year when I truly learned what it means to be content; to lay down expectations and enjoy the messiness of life.
I’ve accepted the messiness of marriage and it has completely changed the tone of our home.
And this year before we even began decorating, Zlatko and I sat down to hash out Christmas: what it would look like, what it wouldn’t look like.
I had to take a couple of deep breaths, because I knew it would require more compromise on my part – but I had already been prepared to do that.
I had been preparing all year for this one moment.
After the initial sting, I felt relief. But more than that – I felt a release!
This year has been anything but like I would have planned. There have been days when the Christmas lights weren’t turned on.
I have listened to Christmas music a grand total of 3 times so far.
I haven’t even listened to my Point of Grace Christmas CD once (so far).
The fun project I planned for the kids this year was a success, and yet, we have more fun packs under the tree than days until Christmas – because I decided it was more important to be spontaneous than stress out about making the 12 Fun Days Until Christmas perfect. Yep – that’s been super-messy! In fact, I made an executive decision to open up all the fun packs today and have a Christmas cartoon/book/activity extravaganza and do the 4 figurines from today on to Christmas day.
And you know what? This year I can laugh about it and say, “Merry Messy Christmas”.
2014 is the year I’ve learned that its in the messiness of life that memories are made. But you can only enjoy the mess when you lay down your expectations of perfection, your drive to control, and your expectations that life will go the way you’ve planned.
Surrendering your expectations is the key that unlocks your path to freedom and true joy!