I will admit it.
There have been times over the past 10 years that I have wanted to pack my bags and return home. But there are two things that have prevented me from leaving Croatia:
1. I am not a quitter
2. I know that no matter where I am, I will never be “home”.
I didn’t come here with rose-colored glasses. I was raised in ministry, so I know that ministry can be hard and very lonely. I wasn’t naive in that sense. But I did embark on missionary life with some level of expectations and big, big dreams.
I can say with complete certainty that nothing has gone the way I’d planned.
I have experienced incredible victories I could have never dreamed up. I have been disillusioned. I have felt lonely and have dreams come true that I never dared to hope would be a reality.
But of all of the lessons I’ve learned, there is one that stands out among them all.
If 5 years ago someone had asked me to describe contentment, I probably would have said something like, “Being satisfied with your present state of things” or something to that effect.
I know better now.
Take Joseph, for example. Here he is in prison. His dreams are so distant now, I am pretty sure he wondered at times if he had been hallucinating or something.
But the doors open, and the guard calls on him – it is time to leave.
What does Joseph do?
I am pretty certain he didn’t say: “No thanks! I am satisfied with my current state of things. I find them quite pleasurable, thank you. I think I’ll stay here.”
Does contentment mean that you never hope that your situation changes? No, I don’t think so. I am pretty sure that Joseph hoped to be released at some point. In fact, he asked the cupbearer to remind Pharaoh that after all that time, he was still in prison.
So, what is contentment then?
Contentment: choosing to view life’s circumstances through the prism of God’s plan
You didn’t do this to me, God did!
To prepare him to save a nation!