One of the things that happened for me with Adrenal Fatigue was that I felt dead inside.
I felt almost nothing.
It was like feelings were calling to me through a deep, deep fog. I could almost hear them…but then, maybe they were just a figment of my imagination.
As I’ve been healing – and so much progress has happened this year on my journey – I’ve begun to really feel again.
In some ways this has been wonderful.
In other ways, not so much.
I used to battle worry and anxiety a lot. When I mean a lot, I mean that I could spend hours and days obsessing over something very minor and blow it way out of proportion.
This is partly how I came to have Adrenal Fatigue.
The past several weeks I’ve battled worry and anxiety in a way that I haven’t battled in years.
While I know it is a sign that my body is turning back on parts of me that have been turned off for years, it’s still been extremely difficult because while my mind knows that these fears are irrational, my emotions can’t seem to tell the difference.
It’s like my life has turned into a huge drama and I have top billing.
Please let me exit stage right!
Instead of running from it or drowning it out with listening to podcasts and watching TV, I have turned around and stared it right in the eye.
And I’ve been reminded that fall and winter were always my difficult months.
The days are shorter and as it gets dusk around 4pm-ish, that’s when this sense of doom creeps in. Even when I can’t even pinpoint why I feel it, it is just there.
Like a boogey monster haunting me and taunting me.
But I’m not putting up with it any longer!
I’ve spent a lot of time quoting Scripture to my heart, reminding myself of the amazing things God has done for me and my family, and instructing my heart of the goodness and love of God.
You can look for a new printable of verses on anxiety for your war room soon!
One thing I’ve learned this week is this: you can’t have panic attacks and rest at the same time.
It’s just impossible for your mind to obsess over something – either real or imagined, for your whole being to be tied up in knots like that, and for you to be at rest.
The two states of mind and heart and completely polarized from one another.
You can’t release something to God and obsess over it at the same time.
I’ve prayed this prayer at least 100 times this week, “Lord forgive me for picking back up what I’d already laid at Your feet.”
Because if I’ve released something to Him, I must have the faith to trust that He’ll take good care of it.
After all, Scripture says, “Casting all your care on Him for He cares for you.”
We see 5 very good reasons why you can stop worrying right now.
Like right now!
1. God created every part of you with reverence and wonder.
In the Hebrew it literally says that God created your kidneys, which were considered to be the seat of the emotions. In other words, not only did God create your physical body, He also created your emotions and your spirit.
And He created you with reverence and distinction. The word wonderfully means “set apart”, “distinct”, “distinguished”.
You are one of a kind. Uniquely His.
2. You are not lost.
In John 10, Jesus used the illustration of a Shepherd to describe our relationship to God. He is the Shepherd and we are sheep.
Sheep are basically defenseless animals. They don’t have fangs or claws to protect themselves from predators. They need a shepherd to defend them and lead them to food that wont poison them.
They are also easily spooked and can’t digest their food properly if they are unsettled.
They know the voice of their shepherd and they it reassures them that he’s nearby and that he’ll protect them. They’re not lost.
The voice of their shepherd gives them comfort.
And I love that picture of God and us.
God’s voice gives us comfort. We’re not alone, we’re not lost. Our Shepherd is defending us and protecting us. We can rest and be at peace in His presence.
3. Jesus has chosen you to be His friend.
We often quote John 15:13 as a true sign of heroic friendship. “Greater love has no one than this that someone lay down his life for his friends.”
Jesus stated this and then went on to say how He has chosen us to be His friends. He said, “No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you.”
Not only did God’s Almighty hands shape us and create us; not only is He protecting us, but He considers us His friends!
4. God has chosen you to be His child.
There is no mathematical number high enough to calculate how many times I hear my kids call out “mommy!” in one day.
Seriously, it is a lot.
And while at times it is overwhelming, it is still beautiful.
My youngest is in a phase right now where if I am not in the same room as he is, he will call out, “Mommy, where are you going?”
He needs to be reassured that I’m not going to leave him in the house alone. He doesn’t want to be left alone.
And you are not alone. In Romans 8, Paul was saying to the Roman Christians, “Jesus didn’t save you and then leave you alone. He saved you and then He sent the Holy Spirit to dwell inside of you. But that’s not all. The Holy Spirit is the trademark on your life that lets everyone know that you are now an adopted child of God.”
The day you were saved is your spiritual “Gotcha Day”.
And the Holy Spirit is the proof of that.
And because you are now an adopted child of God, you are not only never alone, you can call out to God, “Abba!” Literally translated “Daddy!”
5. God has chosen you to be His bride.
Over the past several decades the meaning of marriage has become muddled and distorted.
Not only has living together and homosexual marriage made a mockery of the marriage covenant, but now people are “getting married” to things – and even to themselves.
Today’s church fails to understand how deeply this offends God.
Marriage isn’t a state institution; it is a Christ institution.
God is the one who created the idea of marriage, and He created it for one purpose alone – to be a physical, visible representation of Christ and the church on earth.
This is what makes marriage so sacred; and this is what makes the distortion of marriage so serious.
God has chosen you as His bride.
He sacrificed Himself for you so that He could prepare you and beautify you to be presented to Himself as His chosen bride – flesh of His flesh and bone of His bone.
If we could only understand just how much God loves us…just how much He is watching over us and caring for us, we would bring our hearts to a place of peace and rest. We would no longer allow worry and anxiety to grip our emotions because we would truly understand how much worry is a rejection of God’s love and care for us.
Over these pas several days as I’ve daily trained and instructed my heart, I’ve seen how much quicker I’m able to bring my emotions to a place of peace and rest — training them to hear the voice of the shepherd and know that He is present with me.
He is my creator, my protector, my friend, my father, and my groom.
- Rosilind, a Pacific Northwest native, is a missionary living in Croatia and married to her hero. Together they live in the country with their 2 active boys where she enjoys fruity candles and a hot cup of herbal tea on a blustery fall evening. She holds an Associates of Practical Theology and is passionate about discipling and encouraging women. Her passion for writing led her to author a number of books. She is the author of A Little R & R where she encourages women to find contentment in what God created them to be. She can also be found at these other places on a regular basis. You can follow her on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest and Google +.